To Mods and members alike: Nobody likes to hear excuses. I'm well aware of that, but the truth is things have been hard. I haven't been in the best psychical health as of late, and constantly being at the doctor's office for various tests and treatments really begins to affect you. It was in that moment, after the long, poor string of days I'd had. I came here for my form of refuge, alas only to receive more bad news. My clan wasn't going to be allowed to participate in a privilege in which I felt we rightfully deserved. And you must understand, I was unaware at the time this RPG was any different from any other one, so I natrually assumed we'd been cut for no just reason.
Say what you want, but The Shadow Serpents have all been putting forth the highest efforts to elevate our position as a clan.
In retrospect, I didn't handle it very well, I am aware of that. I have the upmost respect for Crow. He is a fine and clever fella, so it was nothing personal. But it really felt like the whole world was against me at that moment, with him at the forefront, insulting my maturity. I am in dept to Donut for speaking reasonably with me, and making me realize I was wrong. I did end the conflict by expressing an apology, and I hope Crow hasn't any hard feelings.
As for my absence, it was never as great as it was made out. Despite being way too busy, finishing up school and such, I did take the time to visit my clan at least a few times a week, at which point things started going even further downhill than ever before. I scarcely posted on the public boards, yes, but I was never simply gone. When faced with the prospect of losing it, I returned and plead to keep my position, for one reason above all: It
is important to me.
To be brutally honest, it's good to be a part of something like this. I love the atmosphere, the people, the movies, and the work. And I like to feel as if I mean something, to someone, somewhere. Even if just to a few of you, my friends and/or clan-mates.
Regadless, as you know, I was graciously allowed to keep my position. I then elected my second in command (Bloo) so as the clan wouldn't be left unattended again, and I haven't missed a single day or let any of you down in nearly three months since.
I don't expect many of you to understand. But for everyone reading, I offer my sincerest apologies for everything and I thank those in power for giving me the benefit of the doubt and letting this one slide. I just don’t know what else to say.
I'm not sure I've done much of a job clearing my name here, but I've been bloody honest, and I think that should count for something.
Perhaps when Bloo returns, I will take a break from all this. I trust him greatly, and maybe he could do a better job with our situation than I ever could. I'm sorry, but I don't feel very wanted around here, or much of anywhere these days.
For what it's worth, I think the world of this place and everyone here. -Angus